shew. we.

a check.
ryan says... kel, i can't forget to get a couple of checks from the bank today. this was yesterday, of course.
normal day yesterday. at least that was what it was SUPPOSED to be.

i want to send ben off to school and never have to think twice about it. we got up, ben had a half of a bagel and a glass of milk for breakfast. let's not start off on the wrong foot...i mean, i DO make breakfast occasionally-just not yesterday or the day before...or well, i do make it about 2 'school' days a week. weekends don't count. we let meemeez cafe take care of us. but yesterday, a bagel and a glass of milk. blood sugar, 120. HOLLA!

we go outside to wait for the bus which really consists of me holding the baby on my hip while swaying a blistering hot cup of coffee, because the toothpicks are broken and my eyes will NOT hold themselves open....oliver in a t-shirt, MAYBE a diaper, ben beautifully dressed for school. THEN the 2 of them chasing each other in circles around the house while i yell
"ben! don't go too close to the road! ben, GET DON'T LIE DOWN IN THE GRASS, IT'S ALL WET!, ben! don't spinnnnnn me arrrrrroundddddd i have HOOOOOOOT coffee and the BAAAYBEEEEEEEEE. NO! i am NOT base! ollie, get away from the road--do you know what that huge truck would do to you!?! stop rolling in the dirt! ben, don't kneel...UGH, now you have dirt on your knees...
BEN! where are you? there is the BUS!"

THAT part of the morning is done. 7:36am. awesome. what next??

nothing but relax for awhile, get dressed and head to town for checks. maybe errands....of course,in relax i am not counting ollie eating breakfast-because he doesn't eat it anyways, he throws it and smears it, POSSIBLY licks it and nursing pearl AND reheating my coffee since most of it slopped out and i never did get to sit on the porch and enjoy it while we peacefully waited for the bus.

i wait for my 8:30ish phone call from ashley, bens school nurse. to tell me he made it safe and sound and his blood sugar is (?)
she isn't wendy-but she is great.
like clock-work, the call comes. except ashley is in MORE of a panic than normal. ben doesn't have any strips!
i. forgot. the. test. strips. on. the. kitchen. table.
oops.
luckily we keep a spare meter and strips at school, but THAT meter doesn't sync with our insulin pump, so i tell her to test with the spare and i will run the bottle of strips into town. F.M.L.
another call...ben is 400something. christ. so much for my shower...and not that it matters because leaving my house with kids and ryan doesn't happen fast. it is slow going. but we make it to town.
ben is still in the high 400's so i do a quick pump site change and see that there is blood in the cannula. (and i am NOW realizing that i need to take pictures of my daily life, all day long, JUST to show you the things i am talking about). we change the site, go over what's for lunch, count carbs and send ben off to gym. pushing fluids...no ketones, good. i will hear from her after lunch/recess at 1:30.

now, let me back up to the night BEFORE when i spend an unGAWDLY amount of time trying to find bens USB pluggy thing that syncs his pump/meter to the software program on the computer. it is awesome. we can graph, chart, yadadadadadada....email results. but alas, it is nowhere to be found. i dug in boxes, looked under and over everything in this house.
thank god ryan came home and settled me down because i was-i DID-give myself an ulcer freaking out over the misplaced USB plug. ryan assured me that it was in this house so it DID make the move, and that he saw it in an obvious place. also reminding me that we were going to put 'this somewhere safe'...
he found it in the diabetes cabinet. obviously. 
i sync. i have to send our diabetes supply comapny 28 days worth of "time stamped" blood glucose readings in order to SHOW that we test more than 7 times a day, which is what they are supplying test strips for. 7. zoinks...we test um, 15. no WONDER i have run out of strips 2 times in the last month.
i am now up late. my eyes are BLEEDING. i email.


back to present day...
jeff, he is my buddy from CCS MED. the supply co. calls me  on the way out the door...you know, to the school to TAKE ben the test strips that i forgot to put BACK into his kit....and he says-i can't open the link. can you fax it????
for real, i say. COME ON. i grab the laptop. out the door we go.

after we do the morning site change fiasco with ben, we head to meemeez. our favorite breakfast spot...faxing will have to wait a few more minutes because mama is starving. (actually it was ryan, but i try not to state the obvious ♥). i neeeeed coffee. mainly because my cup, from the morning, was still in the microwave.

pearl screamed 89 % of the time at breakfast, oliver rubbed his scrambled eggs and sausage all over the table and wall and ryan ate my LAST bite of biscuit and gravy. i DID get a cup of coffee though, which worked in good timing because while ry left to put pearl in the car...oliver NEEDED to dump an entire box of toothpicks. all. over. the. counter. the floor. the...F me.

and now i fax. over and over because i can't seem to READ and have been faxing to the wrong number. i did that for an hour. the kids ran and caused havoc in the back office of the hotel, ryan brought me a blizzard from DQ and i eventually fax the log sheets to the RIGHT number. and we can go home.

i am showering. finally, i can shower. until i hear my phone ring and yell for ryan to grab it because it suddenly CLICKS that it's 1:30 and it will be ashley calling to give me an update on ben....
bens blood sugar is reading 497. holy fuuuuuuuuuuuu...dge. i told her we'd be there within the hour to pick him up. today is NOT his day.
i will leave out the details of me TRYING REALLY hard to get out of the house again-while ryan checks his email and relaxes on the couch....(which later he did apologize for)....so an HOUR later, we leave the house.
i get another panicked call because now the meter will only read "HI" and not give an actual number. and now ban has ketones. his belly hurts and his insides feel 'tingly'. my heart sinks.

**Ketones are acids that build up in the blood and appear in the urine when your body doesn't have enough insulin. They are a warning sign that your diabetes is out of control or that you are getting sick. High levels of ketones can poison the body. When levels get too high, you can develop diabetic ketoacidosis, or DKA.**
-the ada website.

pull the site. a bent cannula. bloody hell, i hate this! of course you never know until it is too late, that a cannula is bent and ben isn't getting any insulin at all. so that 70 carb lunch he ate was just hanging out in his body-causing irreversible and some really shitty damage. damn you diabetes! i just want ben to be able to eat a darn hamburger!
i gave ben an injection. with a real needle...and had him drink a shit load of water. i knew the problem, luckily, today we had QUICK fixes. quick, as in eventually bens blood sugar DID drop down and by the time he sat down for dinner with his dad it was 115. HOLLA. and NO ketones ♥.

so we took ben to clarksburg, met his daddy and ryan and i took the babies and had dinner. that was a nightmare because oliver in public is no worse than releasing a lion in a meat market.

but we finally made it home, it was 8:30 and i couldn't have been happier to lay down in my bed. what a day.

good night ry, i love you...good night kel...i love...WE FORGOT TO PICK UP THE FREAKING CHECKS.

one day. things will go as planned.